January 5, 2012

How and Why I Decided to Wear the Veil

5th January 2012

Maybe it was anxiety. Maybe I was thinking too much. But I recently could not stop thinking about the idea of loss.

How does one handle loss? What if I lose my loved one? What if I lose my family? How do I live without my husband? How will I ever gather strength if someone I love goes away before I do?

I wasn’t sure if I wanted answers or just some calmness to stop myself from thinking too much.

Allah. I told myself that for each thought I was thinking, for each answer I was seeking; think of Allah. He who knows best. He who knows there must be rain.

Redha. For each loss I should experience, know that it is written. That Allah knows best.

There is life after death.

I began wearing the hijab not just because. Not because of looks, not because of style, not simply because it is a new year.

I want to join Allah in Jannah one day. I want to live in Heaven with my husband and my entire family forever when the day comes. I want my loved ones to be in Heaven and not suffer for my sins.

Allah has given us so much. I want to learn all the ways to thank Him.

Submission to Allah.

I am still learning.


  1. It is beautifully written. Alhamdulillah. :)

    P.S. Yaya, kalau free nanti cuba tengok igotitcovered.org, boleh submit story yaya dekat sana.

  2. Hi Azalia,
    I saw your picture at your Twitter after reading this post and I have to say that you look very beautiful.

  3. Hi Yaya,

    Such a sincere post, congratulations on the hijrah :) I too, am still learning about submission. Hope you're doing great with your loved ones :)


  4. Thank you so much for your beautiful words and for supporting my hijrah, insyaAllah. May Allah bless your kind hearts. :-)

    P/S - Azmin, thanks for sharing that site! Will try to submit my story, insyaAllah. :-)